Today was productive. The kids and I went to visit Antonio's preschool friend. His mother is a really awesome person. She told me I was a great mom several times. I think one of my barriers to being a great friend, is I say things that can be seen as condescending. I think I have always talked that way, and since I never every think that way, it didn't occur to me for a long time. But now I notice people being defensive when I say things, and I have like this out of body experience like I want to take it back and make them understand what I really meant. But I don't really know how to do that. "I didn't mean that the mean way" Yeah...I just need to stop talking like an ass hole. Which didn't really happen so much today with Golina, but maybe once.
I just wish I was more generous. I just don't think about other people, and I will use the excuse of my kids, they suck all the giving I have out of me so I am exhausted of all giving energy. But other people do it. They get their kids in on it too.
I need to pray more with the kids. We say prayers of thanksgiving, but that's about it. There is also Adoration, contrition, Supplication, the Saints, Mass, Rosary...and many more. All try to add one more this week to the dinnertime rote, and hurried blessing.
I worked on the tree skirt tonight. I had the idea of something a lot cooler in my mind, so now I'm just trying to finish it so I can move on to the next thing. I would like to make a few little summer dresses for Bella with fabric I bought already, and a pattern from a dress she has already. That hopefully will turn out more fun. My projects always start out more fun, then I run into some snag, or difficulty, or my machine stops working. Planning is, I guess, the most exciting part. Abel has the evening off tomorrow. I bought something to make him for dinner. Hopefully planning is not the most fun part of that evening. Although it usually is.
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