better

Today was a nice day, mostly because we were able to play outside.  Abel had the evening off, so we made a little family movie night.  Why do I always envision a perfect family sitting around watching a movie quietly snuggling together.  Who's family would that be?  Silly me, our family is over here, yeah here, the noisy baby, the not-finding-the-remote, the falling asleep (on purpose) husband.  I am not a perfectionist, or a control freak.  I am just imaginative.  I imagine a place where nice things happen, I imagine that place is my future life. 

In my future perfect life I won't wonder if I called about that questionable bill, you know, the one I got oh three months ago or so, and said to myself I'll take care of that when I get the chance it's not urgent.  This is a life long habit of mine to put things on the back burner and just leave them there until they eventually fall off the back of the stove.  I would be at least amusing if not a little scary to file through the pit of stuff I forgot.  Yeah, maybe not...too scary.

In my future perfect life I would be able to be holy.  In the best possible way. Like be that woman that everyone wants to be around because they are so good at making you feel good about yourself.  So close to God that my life is a constant prayer.  I always have the right words to say.  In the moment.  I am pretty good at conjuring up a good piece of advice in retrospect.  Of course it's more than that.  Holiness is our complete goal in live worth giving up everything.  I want to live like that.

Breathe in me, O Holy Spirit, that my thoughts may all be holy.
Act in me, O Holy Spirit, that my work, too, may be holy.
Draw my heart, O Holy Spirit, that I love only what is holy.
Strengthen me, O Holy Spirit, to defend all that is holy.
Guard me so, O Holy Spirit, that I may always be holy.
Amen.