looking out to the future

Today was a pretty decent day considering that husband had one of his not speaking to me days again.  He wasn't home much.  Mmmm I'm enjoying a little piece of my chocolate almond pie mmmmmm.  I've decided that I have been thinking way too much about food lately.  I think it is because it has been nearly 6 years since I haven't been either pregnant or taking care of an infant, and it's time to get things in order.  Plus, what woman doesn't constantly worry about her weight, maybe the fat ones....they probably worry the most. 

Anyway I'm sort of tired of this obsession already.  I think I need to turn my focus to something higher, greater.  I need to figure out how I'm going to get to Mass.  Sundays are out of the question until I get a new job, which I should be starting to look into more actively.  I really want to get into CT, and it's getting harder, and harder.  I think I have to go back to school, which would suck big time, unless I waited until the kids were all in school, five more years will come faster than I think, but I'd rather be on my way by then. 

Did I start talking about church or what?  I can go during the week days, it's hard with babies.  I just wish I could get more out of it.  Maybe next fall when Andrew starts preschool.  I hate postponing things like that.  Planning ahead sounds better.  I wish I had the guts, or the fall back plan to tell my boss if I can't go to Mass then I'm done.  If I worked with religious people it wouldn't be a problem.  I went to work for St. Vincent because they are a Catholic organization.   

It's too stressful to think about that stuff.  I'm tired.  Hopefully I can do something fun with the kids tomorrow, like some baking.  Food is fun!

O loving and generous God,
source of all life, holiness and goodness,
we thank you for the many gifts you give us
throughout our lifelong journey of faith.

With faith in our future,
we commit ourselves to our children's,
and our own lifelong faith formation.
With hope in the here and now,
we ask you to nourish us in your Spirit
so that we may be faithful stewards of your gifts.
With love, may the sacrifice of our joyful giving
be an outward sign of the true treasure we hold in Jesus.

O faithful God, keep us always mindful
of the good that can happen
when we allow you to work through us
as one family united in faith.

We entrust our prayer through the intercession
of Mary, the Immaculate Virgin Mother of God,
as we pray through Jesus Christ
who is the same yesterday, today and forever. Amen.