ups and downs

I feel better today, I feel free to eat what I think is healthy.  Which is stupid, I know.  I had a dental appointment this morning.  I arrived and they had nothing scheduled for me, turns out I made an appointment with the wrong dentist.  Sheesh.  So I went to get my hair cut.  So I should be feeling really good today, we got the passports taken care of for the kids.  But Abel is stressed out about going to Mexico.  So nothing is right in his world today,which I guess is my fault.  Same old thing with him.  It does seem like he is escalating, I could tell all he really wanted to do was give me a good smack across the face.  But he didn't, he had to go to work.  Then all I really wanted to do for the first time in a week was stuff my face full of chocolate.  There is a large piece of pie in the fridge, left over from pie day.  I was imagining myself eating it all like I always did.  Not this time.

We had garden burgers for dinner, and the kids were crazy about them.  I think Antonio would have kept eating if I had cooked two for him, and Bella was the same.  I think Andrew is just not in a growing spurt, because he rarely eats much.  Snacks a lot.  I don't think I will buy fruit snacks for awhile those kids are addicted.  I got them dried apricots, and cherries.  "A real fruit snack" I tell them, and they look confused, and say "no, that is not what I am talking about" 

I really wanted to organize my sewing space tonight, and enjoy half that piece of pie.  The organizing wasn't going to take long because it is not very big, but Bella woke up, which is unusual, and now I need to attend to her.

Day by day remind yourself that you are going to die.  Do not show too great a concern for the fleeting and temporal things of this world.  One must not be excitable, anxious, extreme, obstinate, jealous, or oversuspicious.  Such people are never at rest.  There are times when good words are left unsaid out of esteem for silence.  Diligently cultivate silence at all times, but especially at night.  There should be specified periods for both labor and for prayerful reading.  All things are to be done with moderation on account of the fainthearted.  Nothing is so inconsistent with the life of any Christian as overindulgence.  Show forethought and consideration in all things, and whether the task at hand concerns God or the world, be discerning and moderate.  Arrange everything so that the strong have something to yearn for and so that the weak have nothing to run from.
-the rule of St. Benedict