i've had it!

I've been thinking for a while now that I would like to hire someone to help out with the cleaning.  Maybe when the kids are older, and spend more time in school, it would be easier, but right now there are times when Bella just wants to be held all the time.  And I feel for her, the only real one one one time she gets is right before she sleeps.  She loves those books.  I guess the boys did too.  Soo I need to figure out how I can get some help.  Abel thinks I'm lazy, and if we got someone to hep clean I would become even lazier.  I think it would really help me to focus on what is really important.  I feel frustrated by all the things I'm expected to do.  I don't feel like I can get it all done and pay attention to the kids, no way.  I feel like I did everything I could today to clean up, and this place still looks like sty-to my husband.  I think it looks perfectly fine, except for the floors, which need to be replaced.

Work is tomorrow, and I'm not going to take any @#$% from anyone, well just one in particular I guess.  I had better go to bed so I'm not drop dead tired again the weekend.

Father,
You guide your people with kindness
and govern us with love.
Give the Spirit of wisdom to us.
May the growth of your people in holiness
be the eternal joy of our shepherds.
We ask this through our Lord Jesus Christ, your Son,
who lives and reigns with you and the Holy Spirit,
one God, for ever and ever. AMEN.