day of reflection

Today was a learning day.  I went to mom's group for the first time in a while.  I realized why I stopped going, because it is a pain in the butt to bring the kids.  Get up way to early in the morning, get them dressed, fed, in the car, to the church, out in the rain, up to the childcare room, where they make an already small room full of kids more full and noisy.  I suppose despite all of this, moms group was very nice.  There were only like four of us so it was sort of noticeable that I didn't speak much.  But I made a few notes for things that I want to think a little more about.  Giving freely, What are my achievements, and how is God a part of those? Who is my favorite saint.  Be open to the Spirit because he is the Creator of the everyday, not that the everyday is ordinary.  Rather that we should view the ordinary, and everyday as amazing and extraordinary because it is Spirit breathed.  That is how God wants us to feel about every moment.  That it is a gift to be treasured, spent in the fullest, and best way possible. 

Then later in the day Solina came over with Michael to chat and play, respectively.  Solina is nice in a quiet sort of way even though she does talk a lot, she makes it seem like she's not.  Maybe because she listens a lot too.  She gave me some information on parenting, and playing with your kids.  She was telling me about last time she came over. 

The paperwork she gave me is mostly about valuable play time for your kids.  I think I need to get the kids playing more.  I use the t.v as a crutch too much maybe only one show while I'm making dinner.  And to play with them.  If they are playing well I take that time for myself.  Sometimes we play a structured game with rules together, but they need sometimes to play, just play.  I also need to separate Andrew and Antonio, and play with them with their own preferred game.

O Lord Jesus Christ, Who,
before ascending into heaven,
did promise to send the Holy Spirit
to finish Your work in the souls
of Your Apostles and Disciples,
please give the same Holy Spirit to me,
that He may perfect in my soul
the work of Your grace and love.

Grant me the Spirit of Wisdom
that I may despise the transient things of this world
and desire only after the things that are eternal,

the Spirit of Understanding to enlighten my mind
with the light of Thy divine truth,

the Spirit of Counsel
that I may always choose the way
of pleasing God and living in Heaven,

the Spirit of Fortitude
that I may bear my cross with Thee,
and that I may overcome with courage
all the obstacles that oppose my salvation,

the Spirit of Knowledge
that I may know God and know myself
and grow perfect in the science of the Saints,

the Spirit of Piety
that I may find the service of God sweet and amiable,

the Spirit of Fear
that I may be filled with a loving reverence towards God,
and may dread in any way to displease Him.
Mark me, dear Lord,
with the sign of Your true disciples
and animate me in all things with Your Spirit.

Amen.



For some reason I've been thinking a lot about how I used to be very talkative, and cheery.  I gave "advice freely"  never thought anyone could not really like me because I was just cute, sweet, and didn't really care anyway.  And how annoying that was to a number of people, most of which I was oblivious to until recently.  Recently being the last year or so.  I don't know why I keep reminding myself of how ignorant, and silly I was.