the long spring

So this weekend.  I was thinking some more about Lent activities for the kids.  And I think I will try to make some sort of Jesse tree kind of thing.  There are 40 days so I think it could be a bit of a challenge.  But there is also quite a bit of scripture there.  So as I read my Pope book I will take notes, and I think I will also need a children's bible.  Now I have a story book one that I love.  But I think it would be nice to read the actual thing.  I may also be getting a little ahead of myself.  Whenever I think that Antonio might be too young to understand things he is not really.  And he is smart also, that when he doesn't understand something he says "Mommy I don't really understand what you are saying.  Can you tell me in a different way"  You don't really worry about a child having learning problems who routinely uses that phrase.  Anyway we'll see if I can get this project off the ground.  I am excited about it, but I don't have time. 

I have an eating problem.  I don't really want to talk about it.   But I want to fast for lent, and it is just not happening.
Jan 13-
 167lbs
32 under bust
41.5 at the largest part
and today...cringe...
167lbs
33under bust
40.5 at the largest part
hummm.  my measurements makes me think everything is the same but it's not. I "feel" bigger.  I crave more disgusting foods than I used to.  I'm just ready to be able to get outside.  Antonio asked me several times today when Summer was going to get here.  " I want to play outside in the sprinkler, and go tot he park, and eat Popsicles, and go to the beach."  "Soon" I said pointing out the daffodils.



 God, heavenly Father,
look upon me and hear my prayer
during this holy Season of Lent.
By the good works You inspire,
help me to discipline my body
and to be renewed in spirit.

Without You I can do nothing.
By Your Spirit help me to know what is right
and to be eager in doing Your will.
Teach me to find new life through penance.
Keep me from sin, and help me live
by Your commandment of love.
God of love, bring me back to You.
Send Your Spirit to make me strong
in faith and active in good works.
May my acts of penance bring me Your forgiveness,
open my heart to Your love,
and prepare me for the coming feast
of the Resurrection of Jesus.

Lord, during this Lenten Season,
nourish me with Your Word of life
and make me one
with You in love and prayer.

Fill my heart with Your love
and keep me faithful to the Gospel of Christ.
Give me the grace to rise above my human weakness.
Give me new life by Your Sacraments, especially the Mass.

Father, our source of life,
I reach out with joy to grasp Your hand;
let me walk more readily in Your ways.
Guide me in Your gentle mercy,
for left to myself I cannot do Your Will.

Father of love, source of all blessings,
help me to pass from my old life of sin
to the new life of grace.
Prepare me for the glory of Your Kingdom.
I ask this through our Lord Jesus Christ, Your Son,
Who lives and reigns with You
and the Holy Spirit, one God, forever.

Amen.