bad day

Today was a terrible day.  I had jury duty.  Last time, about three years ago.  I was very interested about how everything went, I was glad I was picked, and it went well.  We were all in agreement.  This time I was very apprehensive.  There were close to 200 of us and they only needed 6.  Why do I get "lucky" this time.  I was just shaky.  I was afraid that the case would be about domestic abuse, and I would have to tell them about my experience with that.  That's a dumb thought.  Why would I worry about that.  But, that is exactly what happened.  And then I had to be there until 6:00pm.  I thought it was going to be a nice day.  Abel had the day off.  I might get out early, have a little time to myself, then pick up some dinner and make it for Abel.  But sadly that was not even close to realty.  Abel didn't even have the night off I had to pick up the kids at Jose, and Jaquline's house.  Where I seem to be unable to avoid being rude.  It is such a force of nature to get those boys out of the door that I never remember to say good-bye or thank them properly.  And then I had no car seats.  Thankfully Jaqui had one booster seat still from Andres that I could at least strap Bella into.  She really didn't like it, but at least she didn't figure out that it was really easy to get out of.  I was driving home in the dark and the rain trying to take the back roads, but I don't really know back roads.  Fretting about the conviction, and the fact that I was going to be brought into court for endangering my children with lack of car seats. 

I suppose it could have been worse.  It could have been a grisly murder trial or something could have happened to the kids.  But I wanted my day.  But I know, I know I shouldn't have such plans or expectations.  But I will still because what else to I have to live for.  I did learn one important thing though.  Don't call the cops in a domestic dispute unless you are really sure you want your husband to go to jail.

I felt bad for that guy, I should have fought harder for him.  It was 2 against 4.  And we were all tired.  And the entire courthouse was waiting on us to finish up.

Lord Jesus, for our sake you were condemned as a criminal: Visit our jails and prisons with your pity and judgment. Remember all prisoners, and bring the guilty to repentance and amendment of life according to your will, and give them hope for their future. When any are held unjustly, bring them release; forgive us, and teach us to improve our justice. Remember those who work in these institutions; keep them humane and compassionate; and save them from becoming brutal or callous. And since what we do for those in prison, O Lord, we do for you, constrain us to improve their lot. All this we ask for your mercy’s sake. Amen.